Ahmed Best Opens Up About Near-Suicide Attempt in Response to Star Wars Backlash in Light & Magic
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Ahmed Best Opens Up About Near-Suicide Attempt in Response to Star Wars Backlash in Light & Magic

Ahmed Best hopes his experience has shown people that, even when it comes to CGI characters, the actors behind them still matter and shouldn’t be treated as if they don’t exist.

Jar Jar Binks / Ahmed Best Credit: Lucasfilm / Disney

Light & Magic is a Disney+ docuseries that dives into the history and innovation of Industrial Light & Magic, the visual effects company founded by George Lucas. Released with Season 2 on April 18, 2025, the series explores the creation of iconic characters like Jar Jar Binks, highlighting Ahmed Best's pioneering contribution to motion-capture technology during Star Wars: Episode I – The Phantom Menace. The docuseries also showcases Best’s influence on Yoda’s lightsaber fight in Attack of the Clones, where his martial arts expertise inspired key choreography. Featuring insights from ILM leaders, the series emphasizes the collaborative spirit that drove technological advancements during the prequel era. Promoted at Star Wars Celebration Japan in April, Season 2 underscores the ongoing cultural impact of these behind-the-scenes stories.

In a raw and emotional segment of the docuseries, Ahmed Best, the actor who brought the polarizing Jar Jar Binks to life, has shared a deeply personal account of how intense public scrutiny nearly led him to a tragic end. Now 51, Best, who was just 26 when he portrayed the quirky Gungan in 1999, expected the role to launch a promising career. Instead, it plunged him into a crucible of criticism that tested his very will to live. “I thought it was my fault. I was 26. What should have felt like the beginning of something quite wonderful felt like the end…,” he reflected, his words carrying the weight of a young artist grappling with unexpected rejection.

Ahmed Best as a Jedi Credit: Lucasfilm / Disney

The actor vividly recalled a night that nearly defined his story, standing on the Brooklyn Bridge, leaning against a pillar with the Statue of Liberty visible in the distance—a symbol of freedom that felt painfully out of reach. “I just remember myself on the outside of the [Brooklyn] Bridge, leaning on one of the big pillars. I see the Statue of Liberty, and what I think to myself is, 'I'll show every single one of them what y'all did to me. I'm gonna make every one of you feel what you did to me,'” Best shared, his voice echoing a mix of defiance and anguish. In that moment, he felt consumed by the desire to escape the relentless judgment. “I'm leaning on the bridge and I'm getting closer and closer to just going — just being free of all the talking and people,” he admitted.

Yet, in that critical moment, fate intervened. “Then out of nowhere, WHOOSH, a gust of wind blows at me,” Best recounted. The sudden force knocked him off balance, forcing him to clutch the bridge for safety. That jolt, both physical and emotional, sparked a revelation. “I lose my balance and I grabbed onto the side of the bridge. Then I laughed to myself, 'What are you doing? What are you doing?'” he said, describing the moment when clarity broke through. The fear of falling reminded him of his will to survive. “I got happy that I was afraid. It meant that I wanted to live,” he explained, a poignant reflection on the instinct that pulled him back from the edge.

Best’s journey didn’t end on that bridge. Since The Phantom Menace, he has carved out a multifaceted career, returning to the Star Wars universe as Jedi Kelleran Beq in The Mandalorian and lending his voice to Star Wars: Jedi Temple Challenge. Beyond acting, he has explored music, writing, and directing, channeling his experiences into creative outlets that reflect his growth. As of today, Monday, July 14, 2025, at 01:22 PM EDT, Best’s story continues to resonate, offering a powerful testament to resilience and the human capacity to overcome.

Moreover, Best’s contributions to Star Wars extend beyond Jar Jar Binks. In Attack of the Clones, he played a pivotal role in shaping one of the franchise’s most memorable scenes: the lightsaber duel between Yoda and Count Dooku. When ILM’s Rob Coleman struggled with how to depict Yoda’s first on-screen battle, Best stepped in with his martial arts background. He invited Coleman to his home, sharing videos of anime, Bruce Lee movies, and Swordsman II starring Jet Li, inspiring the dynamic leaps and spins that defined Yoda’s Ataru lightsaber form. Best also insisted on a striking pose for Yoda, a moment that elicited cheers from audiences worldwide. His influence ensured the scene was both a technical triumph and a showcase of Yoda’s prowess, cementing his legacy within the Star Wars saga.

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By sharing his truth in Light & Magic, Best not only reclaims his narrative but also provides hope to others facing their own struggles, reminding them that even in the darkest moments, a gust of wind—or a spark of self-awareness—can change everything. Don’t miss the opportunity to witness this inspiring journey—be sure to watch the trailer for Season 2 of Light & Magic to dive deeper into the magic behind the Star Wars universe.


(H/T: EW)

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